I’ve learnt quite a bit today. Found out that my English and Mandarin is much worse than my Burmese colleague, but that is besides the point. But some thing to note is that I really need to improve on my spoken English. Read a chain email from my boss’s account when he was browsing through his email in front of us and one of them was a joke about how we only hire Singaporeans who do not speak Singlish. As much as it was a joke, it is an unspoken truth. Everyone here speaks so well and eloquently!
Anyway, official training started today and I have come to realized how much I must push myself. We have got so much to prove to the rest in order to gain their trust since this is a new venture in Singapore. And we just realized that our American bosses and directors will all be going back to the States in 3 years or less, meaning to say that everything will be fully run by Singaporeans in no time. Day-to-day operations aside, to think about how we will be tasked with the role of instilling the strong and unique culture that my company and my department have to the new-comers is intimidating! For one, the screening process is insanely stringent. More than 200 resumes received for my position, more than 50 interviews with the manager and yet only 3 have been selected thus far. I don’t know how but in a few years time, we will be running the show (unless I fare too badly that I get fired but I am not intending to take this track, obviously. And I am assuming that I do above average so that I at least get promoted out of this position I am now). Thinking about it is scary but exciting at the same time. This independence and level of autonomy that is presented to us even at the very junior level is a gift that not all companies offer. I really have to maximize the time my boss is here (about 10 more months) and learn as much as possible and push myself out of my comfort zone (actually tdy he said that we should expect him to push us, but I gotta set even higher standards for myself).
Had a session with the Director of this new office today and found out the story behind the Director of my department (in US where he built the 130+ member team in a few years). He overcame his near-death experience in his sport and came back to win college championships (which is a really big thing in the US considering that a large number of them actually turn professional after that). Don’t want to go too much into detail but it was truly inspiring and I finally understood why he empahsizes so much on positivity and hardwork. And I guess it definitely led him to have a slight inclination towards me during my interview with him as I highlighted a similar (but definitely pales in comparison to his) experience of overcoming injuries to fight back. I feel ashamed of even comparing that injury to his, but at least it led me to understand his motivation and drive to succeed.
I feel that in my past 4 years I have somehow lost the drive that was in me. People used to know me as a a highly-motivated individual in the past but that just seem to have gone away along the years. I guess I am slowly finding it back now. And just to highlight, being motivated is different from being competitive… and that is because I see myself as my obstacle to success. I gotta take note of my strengths and weaknesses and challenge myself to excel (which reminds me that my Director kept emphasizing on EXCELLENCE and ATTITUDE… so Shin lol) and I am glad that my boss helps me with that. He constantly provides feedback and that is really helping.
So far so good… looking forward to the next day of work (: